Emotions?

Why Don’t I Show Any Emotion?

How is it that I can feel emotion but not show it? My emotions run the gamut every day. I do have to say most of them are negative: sadness, hopelessness, fear, anger, disgust, pain, weariness, confusion. But sometimes I feel good emotions, just sometimes: happiness, bewilderment, trust, wonder, amusement, pride, patience, love. I’m just…

I'm hearing voices. Please help me!

A Day in the Life of a Schizo: Realization

3:00 am 7-25-2014 Philippine Time I’m sitting here waiting for my video to upload to YouTube. It feels like it’s taking forever. I’ve been up since 11:30 pm trying to get this thing working and I’m tired. Next month I am getting one of those e-cigarettes and I am going to try and quit. Someone…

Video Post

VLOG: What it is Like to Live with Schizoaffective Disorder

Welcome to my second video blog. I actually had it completed yesterday, but I had a problem with my internet connection so I couldn’t upload it. I ask that you bear with me as I learn to make better videos. Hopefully each one will be an improvement. In this short video, I talk about what…

Emotional Pain

Schizoaffective Disorder, Depression and Anxiety: The Story of My Life

I have Depressive-Type Schizoaffective Disorder, so feeling sad and hopeless is somewhat normal for me. Unlike Bipolar-Type, which has cycles of manic “up” periods and depressive “low” periods, I just feel the “lows” along with my psychosis. Add in with that intense anxiety and you get an idea of what I go through on a…

Psychosis is a four letter word

Schizoaffective Disorder: My Strategy for Handling Psychosis

Being that I am not a doctor, this article is purely based on what I have researched, advice from my doctors and my own experiences. If you are experiencing psychotic episodes for the first time, consult a professional. What is Psychosis? The organization Rethink Mental Illness, in the article “Psychosis – What is psychosis?” defines…

Stigma

An Open Letter to the People of the Web About Schizophrenia

I glanced over an article called “Schizophrenia: the most misunderstood mental illness?” today and saw a short reference to an experiment that Rethink Mental Illness did about Schizophrenia. They Googled the words “Schizophrenic’s should” and were shocked by what suggestions came up. I decided to do it for myself. I was a little shocked too.…

just imagine...

Bearing the Scars of My Past Self-harm

I haven’t written anything for a few days because I got some weird tropical flu again, but I seem to be bouncing back. But, during my sickness, I had some weird flu-induced dreams that have stuck with me. I dreamed several times that I started cutting again. The dreams were so real they woke me…